April 9th, 2010. It’s 2:30 a.m. and I can’t sleep. I’ve been back in California less than a month, and already, life is changing rapidly. Recent events, some quite painful, are causing a major shift in my perspective. As I sit there alone in the darkness, something occurs in me that will change my life forever. Turning on the kitchen light, I sit down in front of my computer and start searching on the internet. For what, I’m not sure. But within moments, I soon find out.
During this moment of despair and heartache, my mind takes me back to when I was a little boy growing up on a farm on the plains of Western Kansas. As the only boy out of 6 children my parents raised, my place seemed to always be by my father’s side, working outside tending to the family farm. I recall many things he said, but one sticks out; “Feeling bright-eyed and bushy-tailed this morning?” And then he would say, “Let’s go Gusto!”
Little did I know then how prophetic and profound that nickname would be. The next thing I know, I’m thinking how many of my friends call me that now on Facebook, as well as the manner in which I share some of my thoughts and feelings, experiences both triumphant and tragic. Yes, I tend to “ramble”, I said to myself. In a flash, it happens. Without any design or forethought, in a clarifying moment of inspiration, “GustoRamblings” is born.
For the next few months, that website and blog would be my outlet, a place where I could share some of my most innermost thoughts. At first, it was nothing more than a form of self-therapy, a means by which I sought solace and comfort in overcoming sadness from events since mid-2008, yet also a place to share glorious moments of my life. But then something else “happens” out of nowhere. The Facebook page called “Gusto” associated with the website begins to resonate with people. I didn’t fully comprehend why at the time. Today, April 9th, 2012, two years later, it’s as clear as driven snow.
By late spring 2011, there were roughly 300 people following the facebook page and many more from all over the world following the website and blog called “Ramblings.” As it and “Gusto” developed from an infant struggling to find it’s way to one as a man on a full-fledged mission to help others in a mere matter of two years, nothing about my life will ever be the same. Where there was once a deposed banker and farmer full of anger, denial, cynicism, and resentment, is now just a humble man full of hope, promise, compassion, and passion with his life pursuit and dream of mentoring others and writing his first book; “Inspiration at the END….Discovering NEW Beginnings.”
This story though, is not about me. It’s about you. And though there are nearly 10,000 souls following me now in a forum called “Facebook”, it’s not about numbers, nor should it be. It’s about learning from one another, helping each other grow and find ways to overcome obstacles in life. Admittedly, at the beginning two years ago, much of what I wrote and shared was somewhat self-serving in nature, which is understandable given the circumstances at the time. That is certainly not the case now. Over the past year or so, I’ve come to realize that the reason why so many people are drawn here is because we share many of the same experiences in life. Experiences, for the most part, which involve pain, anguish, or sorrow, all of which are forms of grief. I’ve “been there.” I’ve walked in your moccasins, many times over in a manner too numerous to mention, at least right here, right now, in this moment. But each time, somehow, some way, through the grace of God, I’ve come out the other side as a better man and better human being in countless ways.
It is those ways I wish to share with you. “New ways of living and thinking” I call them. Finding hope where there is none. Courage in the face of defeat. Happiness in the place of sorrow. Turning what would appear to be some of your biggest weaknesses into perhaps some of the greatest strengths you’ve ever known. Strengths and lessons you can then, in turn, use to make your life better and everyone around you.
These are just some of the elements that go into my mission. It’s not a “system”, per se. It doesn’t involve taking steps A, B, and then C. It’s not a 1-2-3 process or a cookie-cutter approach. Everyone’s different so everyone requires unique solutions. But it does involve some basic fundamentals about conducting our lives on a day-to-day basis we all know well, fundamentals you already possess, but have somehow mis-placed during the journey. You still have them. They may just be locked deep inside and I’m simply one of many messengers with a key to help you unlock them. Call it whatever you wish, that “messenger” comes in the form of a personal mentor, life coach, or simply a cheerleader, helping and encouraging you in the game of life. To learn more how I can be of service to YOU, Click HERE.
Let’s be honest though, I’m just one man and I’m certainly not here to “fix” anyone, nor am I here to judge. And I’m very aware my methods aren’t for everyone. Yet at the same time if you’ve ever experienced or are currently experiencing extreme hardship, pain, and anguish of almost any kind, that’s where we might make a connection on a deeply profound and life-changing fashion.
In the end, it’s not what I do or have done that’s brought me here today with you, a man humbled yet strengthened with the courage and faith in the only One who’s responsible for all the Blessings I have in life. And to Him, my Lord and Savior, I remain forever thankful and grateful. Just like I am for YOU.